Life Throws Us A Curveball

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Occasionally life throws you a curveball. I have been sharing with you about my husband and his sister’s walk in Spain and then how they had to comeback early do to health issues that arose. Once home, my husband started complaining of headaches and feeling wobbly on his legs. I thought it might be his electrolytes were off or that he had a vitamin deficiency. So he went to the doctor and well, he was diagnosed with brain cancer last Wednesday. We met with the neurosurgeon this Wednesday and it’s stage 4 glioblastoma, cancer. He is having surgery on Monday followed by chemo and radiation.

What a kick in the gut!

We have cried many tears and had talks that you never want to have but must. We love each other very much and have such happy things happening–His oldest son in his 40’s has finally found the love of his life and is getting married November 1st. Our daughter is getting married in February and all he wants to do is to be able to walk her down the aisle. And his other daughter is having a baby boy in January.

So damn much to live for!

We were just bopping through life, looking forward to our future together. My husband was healthy and active. And then bam!

We do have faith in our Lord Jesus Christ to walk us through this trial though and we are praying for a miracle even though the neurosurgeon said prognosis is 1-2 years.

We invite you to pray with us.

I will try to post my thoughts and experiences here as we go because it will help me process and to gain more prayer warriors in this fight.

I believe God loves us and wants the best for us. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe in miracles. Recently, I wrote that “I believe in Magic, it shows up in the form of love.” Never have those words been more true. My husband’s friends and family have reached out and shown us how much they love him and us. We’ve had the most precious of conversations. Love surrounds us. I’m so very grateful for that.

Our daughter came home and we had wonderful conversations along with tears. His son from Utah came in Thursday and we had a great visit with him and his girlfriend. Another one of his sons drove down tonight with his wife for the weekend. His sister that he went to Spain with lives nearby and she’s came Friday to be with him while I went to work. His childhood friend lives an hour south of us. They discovered that fact awhile back but hadn’t actually gotten together. He drove up to visit and they talked for 4 hours reliving childhood memories together.

My husband went on this walk, this spiritual walk, for healing and he found it. He made peace with everyone in his life that he had been hanging onto the hurt. What a blessing!

The other night when I couldn’t sleep, a dear longtime friend was online and she spent an hour with me, encouraging me with  scripture. She felt words come to her that she was not intending to say but they were spot onto me. She quoted my favorite scripture that she had no idea was my favorite scripture. I felt GOD’s presence in a very real way. Tonight, when I couldn’t sleep, I opened my Bible app and the scripture for the day was that exact one. I know God is with me, loving me, and that I am not alone.

In my view, God is showing up all around us in the form of love.

I intend to lean in, let Him support me, and develop an even deeper, more real relationship with God. He is my greatest source of comfort. I need Him now more than ever.

That is not to say that I’m not scared out of my mind and that I’m not incredibly sad because I am. I’m human. I feel overwhelmed and in shock. There will be many trials ahead, I may need to be reminded of how good God is. Wait make that there’s no “may” I will need to be reminded. I ask for your support in this journey, hopefully non-judgmental support. I do not consider myself some sort of spiritual guru nor do I think high and mighty things of myself, I’m just a person trying to make it in this world and now with this trial before the two of us.

P.S.–I wrote this back in October right after the diagnosis and thought I had posted it, but it went into my drafts. I want to go ahead and share it though for those of you who may not have the full story of what is going on in our lives.